Thursday, November 13, 2008
♥ Concert
Ok la.. I sibey lazy to blog....
Ytd i went to Rihanna Concert... wah piang eh pay $200 end up .. OPENING 1st 5 mins her MIC SPOIL!!!! freak MAN!!
and WOW so many xiao mei mei i think they 14 only lor... and goodness they dance better than me...and wear until SO SEXY!!!
I feel so old.... HAHAHAHAHA
ok here are the pics
P.s I brought a small coke and a box of pocky... it cost me $6...
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Ytd i went to Rihanna Concert... wah piang eh pay $200 end up .. OPENING 1st 5 mins her MIC SPOIL!!!! freak MAN!!
and WOW so many xiao mei mei i think they 14 only lor... and goodness they dance better than me...and wear until SO SEXY!!!
I feel so old.... HAHAHAHAHA
ok here are the pics
P.s I brought a small coke and a box of pocky... it cost me $6...
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6:28 PM
♥ Concert
6:28 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
♥ Kübler-Ross
Kübler-Ross
The stages are:
Denial:
Example - "I feel fine."; "This can't be happening, not to me!"
Anger:
Example - "Why me? It's not fair!" "NO! NO! How can you accept this!"
Bargaining:
Example - "Just let me live to see my children graduate."; "I'll do anything, can't you stretch it out? A few more years."
Depression:
Example - "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"; "I'm going to die . . . What's the point?"
Acceptance:
Example - "It's going to be OK."; "I can't fight it, I may as well prepare for it."
Kübler-Ross originally applied these stages to any form of catastrophic personal loss (job, income, freedom). This also includes the death of a loved one, divorce, drug addiction, or infertility. Kübler-Ross also claimed these steps do not necessarily come in the order noted above, nor are all steps experienced by all patients, though she stated a person will always experience at least two.
Others have noticed that any significant personal change can elicit these stages. For example, experienced criminal defense attorneys are aware that defendants who are facing stiff sentences, yet have no defenses or mitigating factors to lessen their sentences, often experience the stages. Accordingly, they must get to the acceptance stage before they are prepared to plead guilty.
Additionally, the change in circumstances does not always have to be a negative one, just significant enough to cause a grief response to the loss (Scire, 2007). Accepting a new work position, for example, causes one to lose their routine, workplace friendships, familiar drive to work, or even customary lunch sources.
The most common factor is when the person doesn't have the capacity to change their situation, at least not without considerable loss to themselves, thus a person who would go through these stages would not need to continue if they found a way out of the situation: e.g., If a person losing their house was at the bargaining stage but then somehow found a way out of the situation, then they'd have no reason to become depressed. So the 'stages of grief' could be linked to a lack of control or ability, e.g., people who have lost limbs, people on the bad end of an ultimatum, people under threat, and so on.
The stages are:
Denial:
Example - "I feel fine."; "This can't be happening, not to me!"
Anger:
Example - "Why me? It's not fair!" "NO! NO! How can you accept this!"
Bargaining:
Example - "Just let me live to see my children graduate."; "I'll do anything, can't you stretch it out? A few more years."
Depression:
Example - "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"; "I'm going to die . . . What's the point?"
Acceptance:
Example - "It's going to be OK."; "I can't fight it, I may as well prepare for it."
Kübler-Ross originally applied these stages to any form of catastrophic personal loss (job, income, freedom). This also includes the death of a loved one, divorce, drug addiction, or infertility. Kübler-Ross also claimed these steps do not necessarily come in the order noted above, nor are all steps experienced by all patients, though she stated a person will always experience at least two.
Others have noticed that any significant personal change can elicit these stages. For example, experienced criminal defense attorneys are aware that defendants who are facing stiff sentences, yet have no defenses or mitigating factors to lessen their sentences, often experience the stages. Accordingly, they must get to the acceptance stage before they are prepared to plead guilty.
Additionally, the change in circumstances does not always have to be a negative one, just significant enough to cause a grief response to the loss (Scire, 2007). Accepting a new work position, for example, causes one to lose their routine, workplace friendships, familiar drive to work, or even customary lunch sources.
The most common factor is when the person doesn't have the capacity to change their situation, at least not without considerable loss to themselves, thus a person who would go through these stages would not need to continue if they found a way out of the situation: e.g., If a person losing their house was at the bargaining stage but then somehow found a way out of the situation, then they'd have no reason to become depressed. So the 'stages of grief' could be linked to a lack of control or ability, e.g., people who have lost limbs, people on the bad end of an ultimatum, people under threat, and so on.
11:17 PM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
to walk away is his way of handling....=)
does this mean he dumped me?
Lol??..
does this mean he dumped me?
Lol??..
11:21 PM
♥ Inflict the pain back to him
So many times we waited for the time bomb to explode…. Running away from the problem we faced because facing it doesn’t solve it...Dreams and hopes were once my strength to carry on, I am sick of hoping and dreaming… I still love him at this moment…Every time I just pretend that everything is ok... but I got pissed... he doesn’t met any of my expectations anymore... why? I wasn’t that demanding in the past but now I demand so much from him? Why is this so? For the first year… I put my pride down and everything also just let him lead and win…but slowly he eats away my confidence and pride until I felt that I am worthless in this world.. I rebel … and I rebel so much that I hate him… why does he have to do such things to me? Did I ever say he is useless and no work, when everyone around me obviously think that he is useless? No I did not…. Did I ever say his hair ugly? No I did not…… but why he need to put me down so much? He said it is a form of encouragement … wth? Everything also he say is correct … he say pigs can fly also can ….. Encouragement can be given in so many ways but why he has to use the criticism .. This nostalgic feeling surged upwards, threatening to inflict the pain back to him ….He felt it.. definitely he is not happy with it… who will be? .. I am not happy when he did it to me…. Part of me, there is this tiny little light of hope, that prays he think likewise and changed. Then again,………A slap of reality..
I know he won’t………….. =)
I know he won’t………….. =)
6:29 PM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
♥ 周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢
說好的幸福呢
Shuo Hao De Xing Fu
你的回話凌亂著 / 在這個時刻 /
Ni de hui hua ling luan zhe / zai zhe ge shi ke /
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿 / 甜蜜散落了 /
wo xiang qi pen quan pang de bai ge / tian mi san luo le.
情緒莫名德拉扯 / 我還愛你呢 /
Qing xu mo ming de la che / Wo hai ai ni ne /
而你 斷斷續續 唱著歌 / 假裝沒事了 /
er ni duan duan xu xu chang zhe ge / jia zhuang mei shi le.
時間 過了 / 走了 / 愛情面臨選擇 /
Shi jian guo le / zhou le / ai qing mian lin xuan ze /
你冷了 / 倦了 / 我哭了 /
ni leng le / juan le / wo ku le /
離開時的不快樂 / 你用卡片手寫著 /
Li kai shi de bu kuai le / ni yong ka pian shou xie zhe /
有些愛只給到這 / 真的痛了 /
you xie ai zhi gei dao zhe / zhen de tong le.
怎麼了 / 你累了 / 說好的 / 幸福呢 /
Zen me le / ni lei le / shuo hao de / zing fu ne /
我懂了 / 不說了 / 愛淡了 / 夢遠了 /
Wo dong le / bu shuo le / ai dan le / meng yuan le.
開心與不開心一一細數著/ 你再不捨 /
Kai xin yu bu kai xin yi yi xi shu zhe / ni zai bu she /
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 / 我都還記得 /
na xie ai guo de gan jue dou tai shen ke / wo dou hai ji de.
你不等了 / 說好的 / 幸福呢/
Ni bu deng le / shuo hao de / xing fu ne /
我錯了/ 淚乾了 / 放手了 / 後悔了/
wo cuo le / lei gan le / fang shou le / hou hui le /
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著要怎麼停呢? /
zhi shi hui yi de yin yue he hai xuan zhuan zhe yao zen me ting ne?
怎麼了 / 你累了 / 說好的 / 幸福呢 /
Zen me le / ni lei le / shuo hao de / zing fu ne /
我懂了 / 不說了 / 愛淡了 / 夢遠了 / 我都還記得 /
Wo dong le / bu shuo le / ai dan le / meng yuan le / wo dou hai ji de.
你不等了 / 說好的 / 幸福呢/
Ni bu deng le / shuo hao de / xing fu ne /
我錯了/ 淚乾了 / 放手了 / 後悔了/
wo cuo le / lei gan le fang shou le / hou hui le /
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著要怎麼停呢?/
zhi shi hui yi de ying yue he hai xuan juan zhe yao zen me ting ne?
12:48 AM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I think I found the reason which made me love him so much…
I looked back .. I remembered me telling myself that the next r/s I have and I want it to be a proper and good r/s and I will put in all my best effort to work it out…. It is my own promise to myself that make me love him so much…..
I did… I try and still putting my best effort with yuki..even to the extend of accepting things which I cannot accept…. I realize I wanted my r/s to work out so well that I put in so much of love to nuture it…
With this reasons , I could have 2 options to choose.
1. Get a huge setback after breaking up with yuki because… even if I try oso get hurt in the end…
2. Focus on a new guy and try to nuture it again…. As my OWN r/s and as own achievement.
i failed... i realize the more i love him... the more bad things happen....
I failed this r/s… I am not only not happy I am also disappointed …. Why my bf cannot provide me with the basic things like comfort? Trust? Or even Joy?
All these have only myself to blame…. I am too demanding?? I think I am ….
I put in so much.. I expect so much too…. But he cannot give me that much…..
He cannot promise he will marry me… he cannot promise he wont fuck around … he cannot promise his love for me … his famous “ I love you so what?” has such a big impact on me…
I cannot depend on him anymore… why am I still hanging on??
Because I really want to have a proper and good r/s and HOPE to work things out …
This HOPE is making my life so miserable….. because this hope is base on NOTHING… just hope with no reason no securities…. I hate to have hopes… so I always plan for the worse….
When I plan for the worse .. I really plan for the worse….. and he cannot accept the things I do…
I hope to break free from this circle soon……. If we really break up.. I hope I recover fast…
I looked back .. I remembered me telling myself that the next r/s I have and I want it to be a proper and good r/s and I will put in all my best effort to work it out…. It is my own promise to myself that make me love him so much…..
I did… I try and still putting my best effort with yuki..even to the extend of accepting things which I cannot accept…. I realize I wanted my r/s to work out so well that I put in so much of love to nuture it…
With this reasons , I could have 2 options to choose.
1. Get a huge setback after breaking up with yuki because… even if I try oso get hurt in the end…
2. Focus on a new guy and try to nuture it again…. As my OWN r/s and as own achievement.
i failed... i realize the more i love him... the more bad things happen....
I failed this r/s… I am not only not happy I am also disappointed …. Why my bf cannot provide me with the basic things like comfort? Trust? Or even Joy?
All these have only myself to blame…. I am too demanding?? I think I am ….
I put in so much.. I expect so much too…. But he cannot give me that much…..
He cannot promise he will marry me… he cannot promise he wont fuck around … he cannot promise his love for me … his famous “ I love you so what?” has such a big impact on me…
I cannot depend on him anymore… why am I still hanging on??
Because I really want to have a proper and good r/s and HOPE to work things out …
This HOPE is making my life so miserable….. because this hope is base on NOTHING… just hope with no reason no securities…. I hate to have hopes… so I always plan for the worse….
When I plan for the worse .. I really plan for the worse….. and he cannot accept the things I do…
I hope to break free from this circle soon……. If we really break up.. I hope I recover fast…
12:57 AM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
♥ Save 200 bucks
I have saved $200..
If you know that my 6yrs ex bf has been bugging me for the "Unknown" M1 bills...
Yesterday 1st Nov was our agreement...
He smsed...
HIM: 02xxxxxxx POSB Saving , Transter le msg me
ME: i only have UOB
HIM: ok can 4xxxxxxxxx Uob Saving
ME: ok later xfer, so as promised where is the verbal apology from your gf and you?
HIM: Thot Agree after u transter than it will happen? Let me know when it is done
sorry but i have to insert my speech here...
Wah he really think i am dum? Who the hell will xfer $$ first?? If i xfer the $$ to him first .. he run liao lor.. i still wait for him to apologize meh?
ME: ok . Is tat very sincere of you? If u want e money you and her say first
( ok i know i sound abit childish wahahahahah )
HIM: Hilo tats wat we agree on. Its u who didnt agree to promise. And the sorry is i add for you 1 and u didnt suggest. so i dont see the reason i must say first
(EH!! He really roti prata EVERYTHING LOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1st of all the "YOU AND GF VERBAL Apologize to ESTHER" is ESTHER who suggest it de ok !!!!
U all think la... do you think he and his gf will be SO nice to offer to say sorry to me?? anyone which BRAINS also will noe it is IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT?!
The agreement was... HIM AND GF Verbal apologize to ME and i xfer.. OK!!! NB.. roti prata man....
ok so i said... : Very simple.. i can don want the sorry but u can kiss goodbye to the money =)now i am not obliged to xfer anything and i am kind enough to xfer once both of you apologize for those rude calls and threats.
HIM: Ok money i dont want thanks, i didnt give you and threats Thanks.
ME: ok no more demand any money from me, i wont entertain you anymore.
Ok ... few comments....
1st of all .. HIM BO LIAO LEH!! BUG ME SO LONG JUST for the money... now finally i want to give him the money ... he dont want liao =/
I am just asking for an apology because they DISTURB ME .. whats wrong with that??
Ok fine... dont want the money... oso fine for me... :P extra for me to spent !
i just find it... BO LIAO.... he really did something wrong what..
what have i done to deserve scoldings and threats from him and his GF?
now you want money... den apologize for it la...
Ok la.. i really nothing to say anymore.... it is just damn ridic lor
If you know that my 6yrs ex bf has been bugging me for the "Unknown" M1 bills...
Yesterday 1st Nov was our agreement...
He smsed...
HIM: 02xxxxxxx POSB Saving , Transter le msg me
ME: i only have UOB
HIM: ok can 4xxxxxxxxx Uob Saving
ME: ok later xfer, so as promised where is the verbal apology from your gf and you?
HIM: Thot Agree after u transter than it will happen? Let me know when it is done
sorry but i have to insert my speech here...
Wah he really think i am dum? Who the hell will xfer $$ first?? If i xfer the $$ to him first .. he run liao lor.. i still wait for him to apologize meh?
ME: ok . Is tat very sincere of you? If u want e money you and her say first
( ok i know i sound abit childish wahahahahah )
HIM: Hilo tats wat we agree on. Its u who didnt agree to promise. And the sorry is i add for you 1 and u didnt suggest. so i dont see the reason i must say first
(EH!! He really roti prata EVERYTHING LOH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1st of all the "YOU AND GF VERBAL Apologize to ESTHER" is ESTHER who suggest it de ok !!!!
U all think la... do you think he and his gf will be SO nice to offer to say sorry to me?? anyone which BRAINS also will noe it is IMPOSSIBLE RIGHT?!
The agreement was... HIM AND GF Verbal apologize to ME and i xfer.. OK!!! NB.. roti prata man....
ok so i said... : Very simple.. i can don want the sorry but u can kiss goodbye to the money =)now i am not obliged to xfer anything and i am kind enough to xfer once both of you apologize for those rude calls and threats.
HIM: Ok money i dont want thanks, i didnt give you and threats Thanks.
ME: ok no more demand any money from me, i wont entertain you anymore.
Ok ... few comments....
1st of all .. HIM BO LIAO LEH!! BUG ME SO LONG JUST for the money... now finally i want to give him the money ... he dont want liao =/
I am just asking for an apology because they DISTURB ME .. whats wrong with that??
Ok fine... dont want the money... oso fine for me... :P extra for me to spent !
i just find it... BO LIAO.... he really did something wrong what..
what have i done to deserve scoldings and threats from him and his GF?
now you want money... den apologize for it la...
Ok la.. i really nothing to say anymore.... it is just damn ridic lor
6:47 PM
